This can be confusing because you still have to ask this part of yourself to be present, even though that part is inside you. We often relate to you through the images of angels or higher beings, and many times it is easier for you to relate to a channeled version of yourself (as Archangel Metatron) than actually deal with the higher self within you. Yet as we have been saying, you are all one with us and vice versa.
So although we speak to you through Colin, he has been absorbing our energy so successfully that it could be said he is Metatron. However you could also be Metatron, simply by absorbing the same loving flow, so often it can be challenging to word exactly what is happening.
Each of you will be at a different stage of absorption, of ascension, and it is this complexity of expression that makes earth such a wonderful place to experience life at this time.
Colin had a challenge recently when he was absorbing the energy of Jesus/Sananda where this took him the best part of a year. Once this was achieved, with the help of many of his friends, he was able to step back and wonder, what if I am more than this. An unusual thought at the time bearing in mind how big a deal it was to absorb that much energy in the first place. We see this phase as his enabling phase, here Sananda was able to then open further the capability to absorb more loving light.
Which is when we were able to flow into his awareness so that he could accept us as his flow as well. We have been working with him to prepare the Absolute Balance image, which had our energy and that of Sananda, as well as the divine Feminine and his team of helpers from Angels to Spirit Animals and Plants. He prepared this image last year even without having absorbed the full energy of it himself.